Sand and Water

Someone once told me, referring to a great philosopher- “Are u happy or do you want to be happy?” There is a thin line but a world of difference between these two questions. If you want to be happy, you may or may not be happy at some point but if you are happy, nothing can take that away from you!! It depends on how much do you let your inner feeling of joy become a part of the larger world outside vs believing in it to be a beautiful part of your own self that will never change. With that said “belief” and “own self” are two words that often feel frail and weak as we age in today’s world, as if they were the sand under the tides of life at the edge of the sea... its really how we feel in trusting the outside world these days too... worrisome shaky quiet... not so much worth being a part of... and while this picture of disbelief is somewhere created by the self image of ours, the making of such self image is perhaps from the lack of its nourishment. Now, when this feeding of the soul is based on our thinking of the right vs the wrong, good vs bad, sin vs goodwill, evil vs angelic its too draining for the soul to begin with. Making itself after rationalizing such thoughts/emotions/actions/deeds can be exhausting enough at some point leading to an outcome that is very limited. And then we question if such self image can thrive? And the funny thing is that it only happens as we grow older into the working, life building, home making and ofcourse family making  years... we never really question ourselves while growing up. Thats when we believed  in what we were looking forward to! So when we “think/feel” we are done growing up, the outcomes of our actions, of the path of life we are on, of what happens vs what we thought/expected cannot be related to that belief of ours in looking forward to the good... coz whatever the path of life brings, believing in the good can never go wrong. We dont have to change it, dont have to disappoint it into non existent and frail... coz actions and reactions are unrelated to the being/one’s self. The world of difference between “trying to be good” vs being good/ “want to be happy” vs being happy... since birth there has to have been some time when we loved it, felt happy in it. Such time stopped when the ‘judgement’ started. So we have to stop judging and let the time flow, so the innerself recovers its quality of being good, being happy. About the daily humdrum, it will keep changing - like the water of the tides above the sand at the edge of the sea, constantly trying to get somewhere while the sand underneath keeps dancing and smiling in the love and music of life whichever way it goes...!!!

Dec, 2018
Shubhangi Saraf Hundiwale

Are you in the Journey?!!!

Are you in the Journey!!!
Hi Time to empty the mind! Lots going on. life has moved to a new phase! I am married I am pregnant with a boy about to deliver in 2 months living here in the US expecting my Indian family to come live with us working a job that is not so full time have friends living at the other end of the east coast. Too much in terms of full? Missing spiritual touch or say it’s there deep under layers of living. Routine is a disaster late sleep very late wake up odd cooking and eating raising questions about the future and the kid... one hope is from family that will come and help straighten things out... I guess lack of living the dream the way it’s “supposed to be” is disappointing causing a negative outlook towards life pretty much all the time. Expecting the perfect is where the flaw lies that’s clear but how to bring the mind off the rail track of trying to get to it... the direction is missing or it’s important to stay still while letting it all go the way it’s going.. letting the  journey go past and through me seems a better option than running after destinations that keep changing! I wonder if this is a sad way of looking at life or can it be ok? It will be ok if the fog of lack of acceptance causing distraught feelings clears and being ok with the beauty of life the way it is around me without feeling disappointed by it being still in the present vs reflecting on a negative future or past out of it... there is beauty in the presence.. it’s subtle... and easy to become unnoticed while expecting to travel fast on the rail track.. if I can let the journey pass through me with whichever pace it chooses while staying still in it, I will be able to enjoy and appreciate the beauty in the subtle, be able to be subtle and light myself coz that’s where I lie quiet and subtle at peace feeling the joy of life all the time coz I can. The journey is going to continue, the mind doesn’t have to race in the journey. It’s my choice whether to race myself or enjoy and be in the subtle during the journey’s race. Now that I can see from a distance it’s easy to see how the journey moves. It comes and goes phases in phases out is fast is slow feels constant but is transient! Being still, one can notice the existence of ones subtle stillness in the midst of the trans of the moving journey! While the journey fades in and out of brightness, one does not. It’s non existent vs existing. The key to the peaceful joyous stillness lies in the awareness of the transient journey which is natural, works through the forces of nature and does not have a role for one to control it. It cannot be begun or ended by one, it cannot be altered at ones will. It shall take shape around the energy of the existent /the one. The more one is aware of its nature the more one is free from the binding forms and shapes of the journey. And it’s easier to release a knot, actually only possible to release a knot when one can see it vs when one is in it! A light skill of hands doesn’t have to be brain teasing /blood sucking task/fight. So when it feels so, disengagement can bring realization of the journey vs ones self. Acceptance through observation instead of expecting change due to intense involvement is essential to live by the character of the one/the stillness/the subtle existence.

So, no, I may look like I am in the journey of life but in fact I am unrelated to it. It chooses to take shape and form around me. If I happen to get too involved trying to change its transient nature, I start feeling transient myself! If I observe it instead, it looks like the beautiful patterns in an ever changing mosaic, the joy of the vision I am meant to enjoy!

Dec, 2018
Shubhangi 

Most precious lines often lie in the miniature words written along the edges and corners of my page… Just as the reasoning of life… lying around everywhere… ; I cannot obliterate any part of it, until I have structured it into a meaningful imprint in my brain. Such is the complexity of mind. My relationship with peace has its own desire for reasoning.

Writing, learning, understanding and studying on a piece of paper - does not solve it, does not clarify it; but it makes me engaged in the right way… and thats why its precious to me”

Ss

“There are boundaries to chaos… Limited to only so much can it be.The rest is open life for all else: the peace, the joy, the beauty, the calmness, the nothingness”

Ss

The beginning again, of the bright n shining.

Life is a mystery
Yet a part of history
Memories it holds
Yet a story untold
I have lived this before
And been here even more
Yet mysterious it behaves
And feels miraculously strange
Like its trying to make
A beginning again…

Its a cycle of life
A cycle of time
A purposeless myth
Yet a purposeful hymn
A myth to my soul
The drama of life
A hymn to my role
To make it well through the rhyme
As theres’ this come again and go again
In the musical cycle of time
Alive enough to keep it going
And yet salved to shine
It shines with the One, thank the Lord
As at once it knows of the trans
That its gonna keep going and coming
Yet can always be with the One at stance.

“Why do u spend so much???

- Well, often becoz I need to survive my life and sometimes as I need to live it. Besides, its too precious you know… The value just doesn’t go down!”

A roller coaster ride...

Thats what life is about - ups and downs, fears and joys. The important thing is to remember that before the fear plunges u down to nowhere, the joys of life are gonna come to take u up and guess what u have to go with the flow… Theres no ending downhill or no untold high that no one has ever seen… The newness of each moment though, is the gift life wants to give u, which u realize every time u cherish it, appreciate it. Yesterday was something, today is something and tomorrow is going to be something. Its all in place the way its supposed to be. Its the same way when u gift a child the perfect gift for their time, like their first Bicycle or the birthday dress or admission into an awesome career. u know it is as its supposed to be, yet the child enjoys to the fullest, the nuance of that blissful moment each time they get the gift from u… The joy is just plenty and at their level so is the fear of being able to accomplish or achieve unto the possible expectations of whats been provided to them… Riding it all the way thru life, looking great, being what they are supposed to become…. Thats what our mind and heart are for, to feel the thrill, enjoy the ride - high or low , we gotta stay still with the flow! Just as the child doesn’t know of how and why it is, as its supposed to be, and receives and works with the gift as it comes, we don’t know why and how what life brings to us is all as its supposed to be. We keep going through the ups and downs accomplishing what life means for us following the path it guides us through… Until we are children and they are parents we follow what they hope for us, but when thats not really there anymore, we become ourselves and make our own path, our own choices, our own decisions. Thats not how it works with life though. It lays the path for u whether u know it or not. It brings u all the “supposed to and meant to be” stuff that u live or ‘have to live’ - whether up or down - like all thats required to mend a pavement, sculpt a statue, design an art, bring the joy…build or blow whatever it takes. Now does that make u powerless with nothing in your hands or say “a puppet” of life? Is the child a puppet of the parent? Lol! It could appear to be the opposite but no, thats not the case. Its the child’s wish, creativity, choice or most simply put, spontaneity, that puts into action all that power and ability he or she has, while the parent watches him/her grow into good through the well deserved path. So do not worry, continue to be spontaneous and creative. U are in safe hands of the wonderful life.

Make the most of it.

Someone told me a few days ago “make the most of it” . It is important to live life to the fullest. Life is beautiful and has a lot to offer. Every moment has something to share. Share with ur moment and enjoy the bliss of its company. Its so important to to be there in it all. When u feel u are by urself it actually means that u have the time and oppurtunity to be aware of everything ur senses are living. Thats what they are made for , for u to listen carefully what nature has to offer, see how beautiful and serene a moment is in itself, feel the cool of the envirnment, taste the completeness of ur existence, smell the life thats thriving in every bit u can imagine! Is this meditation? This is the state one needs to be in… where u can utilize ur senses to their valuable extent, where they don’t deceive u with illusions as ur mind designs. Real is the creation, the constant process of change of flow of energy. Visions change as does experience. Memory is only for fondness of the experience. It probably came into existence as life felt the need to hold in as it started losing the ability to appreciate the reality of every moment. Coz theres all in each and never none, if u mesmerize in the right way. Its all created by energy which is flowing based on direction u chose to give it. If u let it be, it can stabilize into a complete resonance of ur essential existence which in turn is one with the rest. Being upset can be as simple as a wave treaded away from the stability by u urself. Do u wanna do so? Sure why not ? As it creates equal pleasure as much as sorrow. U just have to remember that the two complement each other and that ur senses need to be no more than aware of both. The more there is indulgence the more chaotic it shall appear. Just remember whatever it is its just a distance away from the resonance and will become one when u let it be! And although the pleasures experienced by the senses including the emotions can be exceptional in their own moments around ur energy, the largest dimension and wavelength is the experience with the resonance.

Also the emotion of being alive is merely a little fragment of what the senses are capable of bringing altogether. To exclaim it correctly on behalf of the complete, the mankind often lives in this only little feeble fragment, trying to create infinite dimensions which are however very low in energy, whether good or bad, fun or boredom, happiness or sorrow, liveliness or dead, euphoric or depressed, joy or sadness, desire or satisfaction - being so far from reality, they are feeble in existence hence do not last.

That is why when u feel fatigued, tired and bored u are actually catering to ur sensing of low energy when for fact the environment around u has so much more to exchange and keep u in the higher levels of energy all the time. If only we could stop being in the little and be a part of the whole. How can we change this sense of low energy? By drinking tea or coffee or hanging out with more energetic friends or be cool or not work around depressed or depressing people? No, this is only playing around what u are keeping urself at. It has nothing to do with other people’s level of exchange. Because, u have to remember life has a lot more in it than just the rest of the people. And if u direct ur energy exchange from not only the matter but the actual energy flow in ur environment, u will realize that earlier u were looking at the wrong levels expecting to get ur flow going. Tea coffee can only move some matter insde u and change ur state in a feeble way for some moments and then comes the trough again. Same is the case with the emotions around other people. Looking at the wrong stuff. What u need to do is enable urself to look feel hear smell taste emote, not the excess of any form of indulgence or desire to bring u the feeble pleasure, but the energy around u so as to resonate with the permanent

The joy of doing nothing but blogging...!

Am I wasting time ;)

Thats the joy of doing nothing..:)….

Well its better to sit and blog than blogging my mind with the list of things I am supposed to be doing! I will tell you why…

One, It is refreshing! To do something beyond the everyday routine…

Two, Adds to my creativity! Motivational to do more!!!

Three, Not boring… To do something new on internet, cant keep away!

Trust me..U end up adding a square (x*) over your “work completed” after a refreshment like this…!

… aand I hve been around this place since like an hour or so… so gotta go now….

But enjoy blogging, unclog the boredom of “so much to do!” ;)

Oops the stupid stress!!!

The reason we end up in stress and worry often is that we are constantly focusing on results instead of action. there is distance between understanding the possibility of success and actual action towards the success. Many a times we devote more in thinking as compared to the actual activity or steps we need to take to reach the desired motive. The exhaustion brought by obsessed thinking can lead to poor performance in terms of focused activity, orderliness and pace of working. Repetitive psychological observation of positive or rather any possible results saturates one’s pool of thought instead of expanding it to absorb more, as actual practice may command. It is as good as wondering about the “round earth”, instead of working on the expanding horizon before one’s eyes. However far it may be, when the beignning and destination are constant, distance evaluated straight ahead is better than evaluating it all around the globe first. Hence, if you are feeling frustrated, “for good or bad”, start the action … do not “think too much”!!!

Have a nice day :)

U are already late reading this…;) LOL!!