Tuesday, May 30, 2023

Reminiscence- The story of me so far…

Being a vegetarian, I came from where grass made the man

In my mid twenties I got transported and teleported to where ‘the man made the grass’

It is sometimes called ‘shrubs and bushes’ here 

That way it can make sure it amuses the viewer

Little did i know why it got cut and sharpened in ways man preferred

As i wondered if i cud stay alive in this ‘made by man’ world

Nature is particular and strict and sharp here sometimes 

While it can also grow naturally beautiful ‘when untold of’ at other times

For when I came all the way here, 

like the grass, I felt expected to be shaped up for the job

The cutting and trimming, in just the needful form felt sharp

And i let a little sigh dying away into ‘nay’

And little was that ever heard, 

in the flamboyant, uptight, sharp world

And upon dying and waking up again 

From the grassy green grave

I came to learn, That I was meant to live

No matter short or tall, I had to upheave

Against my own notions of freedom and sharp bindings

Against my own beliefs of my role per my origin’s findings

It was not only ok but important to earn my bread here

Not for the means it gave but also for the joy of it

It was ok to ask and live through such joy

Where freedom breathed easily in my own smile

Where me was me an active part of the community 

And not just the one living a life in some impunity

So much of that old world now, truthfully, stinks like some rotting hurt

Although I still miss the sweet smell  

of the once happy uncut grass  trying to root in its own moist Earth…

U aint spring anymore, But u are the beautiful colorful fall for sure


Dear life how is it 

that u are u still holdin on

While It hurts me to make you move your old barren bones

How is that u have so much vigor 

While the parts of ur vessel are bearly in balance of  each other 

They are all sleeping in u

The flesh the fluids the food

The heart is running I see 

And its keeping up through as little as it cud be

I am not trying to be the devil here 

Ofcourse I love u “no matter what” :)

But I do wonder how u have such amazing light still

Is it ur hope ur prayer or ur wish to live

Whatever it is, its amazing and glorious 

I wonder if i shall be anything like u 

if I cud be in my Nineties 

U are a teacher a beautiful example 

To teach me of what all of it is worth

Such sweet smile, is it even close to the end

What cud I give to be such alive and not dead

In fact All life and not just then!

Ur liveliness thrives on your prayer

But I have seen so much misery

That to me, keeping on living, i dont even know if its fair

If fair to the maker to the bearer to the carrying timid soul

May i be just you when I wanna feel all well

The woman in the nineties 

With thoughts bright and shining mighty

With thoughts smiling softly 

You aint budding spring anymore

But u are the beautiful colorful fall for sure!